The purpose is to write about the important issues, to write about what I've learned in time, the experience I've gained. Of course, I have nothing against people who would like to learn from these lessons I've learned. Feel free to learn, to compare my stories to yours.
I don't intend to use this blog just to waste time. Time is precious so I want to use it in a constructive way.
Having said that, now I can move forward to the issue I will discuss today.
"... so where exactly am I standing now?"
Let's start with the beginning.
I remember myself saying,more like stating, when I was like 3-4 years old ( yes, I really do remember), that I would become a great person, that I will make it big. And I remembered that I've always wanted to be better than my friends (it may sound harsh, but that's the truth) and I can say that yes, I have become better than most of my friends. About becoming a great person, with an amazing job, well, I'm working on it, and I think so far I've done a good job. I'm using "good" because there's always room for better. I know that I haven't used my full potential yet, and I intend to do that from now on.
The things I'm interested in? Well, music & travelling. These two are the biggest interests.
I've taken canto lessons for 1 year, now I've decided to stop. Not because I realised that it's not my thing, on the contrary! I adore being on stage and performing, it's just that, it's time to be realistic and think mature: how many people make it big in the music industry? Yes, in my mind, I see myself on a big stage, in front of thousands of people, rockin' the hell out of 'em, playing guitar and bass, and being the lead vocalist and the lyricist. But, in order to support my own expenses with the music, in order to pay for my own cd's, for promoting, to buy my own equipment, I need money. So I need a well-payed job. This leads to a plan B, which means I have to focus on school. I think that I'm starting to understand the importance of studying.
Let's look at it this way: most of the artist we admire ( musicians) , yes they are big now, they rock, they live that rockstar life we all wanna live, but, if something would happen to them and they wouldn't be able to perform anymore, there would be nothing left for them, music is their only way of survival, of course they can always become garbagemen or waiters, or mailmen or have anyother lowpayed job there's out there, but that would totally suck!
So wouldn't I be a very respected musician if I were to be a welleducated, sophisticated, rich , independent and talented woman?
Of course I would!! :> So that's the plan.
Now, when it comes to love...
Not much to talk about.
I've observed that I tend to talk to much about the ones I like ( when I like them, cause I quickly shift from one to another and I forget about the old one and the new one becomes the "it" guy) And also, something I've learned today, when a relationship is over, it's fucking over. There's no going back. Trying to make your ex realize what she/he sent away is bullshit. Don't do that. It's just not something that a person with high self esteem would do, have a little ego, neh? Now I know I do.
But that's all part of the learning/growing up process.
No one was born all educated. Sometimes we have to make mistakes in order to learn , or how Ani DiFranco puts it : " A lesson must be lived, in order to be learned".
Yup. Things that I'm proud that I've changed:
- I started eating vegetables
- I started doing more physical exercises
- I started paying more attention to studying
- I'm getting better with the guitar
Things I'm focusing on :
- getting higher grades
- learning as many foreign languages as possible, and learn them well too.
- improving my voice and my guitar skills
- learning how to manipulate people. ( I'd love to rule the world too ;;) just kidding)
Well, til next time
Yoroshiku`!!~~
Oh, and I'm also a traveler and I like "Nana" and strawberries!
"... dakara KEEP TRYING"!!!!
